Percuma RM27!

Leen: Kau tau tak kat KB Mall ada buat promosi gila-gila punya!


Esah: Bestnyaaa.. Nak pegi! Nak pegi! Ada banyak sale ke?


Leen: Fuh, kau tau promosi memang mantap abes! Time kita enter je KB Mall tu, dia bagi kita rm27 free woooooo!! 


Esah: Wow! Sekali masuk dapat rm27.. Macam tak masuk akal.. Ni memang wajib pegi ni! Sape tak nak duit free beb.. Aku nak masuk banyak-banyak kali lah..


Leen: Haha.. Banyak la kau duit free! Zaman sekarang sape nak bagi free senang-senang.. Kau nak buang air pun kena bayar 20sen tau.. Aku acah je laa..


Esah: Ish kau ni.. memang nak kena! Aku mati-mati ingat promosi betul-betul..


Leen: Tapi ada satu tempat ni kau memang leh dapat free tau? Ni memang aku gerenti..


Esah: Ni mesti nak kenakan aku lagi ni? Well.. kat mana? hehe..


Leen: Kau pergi masjid, masuk saf, solat jemaah.. Free free je kau dapat 27 pahala!! Kalau nak lagi banyak, kau pergi la 5 waktu sehari.. sure banyak harta kau nanti..


Esah: Errr..




Written by,
Fadzleen Ezyani

Mana ucapan takziah untukku?

Ya Allah, aku seakan baru tersedar dari tidur yang panjang..
Sudah lama aku meninggalkan solat jemaah..
Lama sungguh!! 
Kalau nak dibandingkan sewaktu Tahun Pertama aku di universiti..
Alhamdulillah.. Jarang sekali aku tinggal solat jemaah Maghrib dan Isyak di surau kampus..
Selalu juga aku ke surau untuk berjemaah Subuh..
Kalau kelas habis awal, selalu juga aku ke surau untuk berjemaah Asar..


Tahun 2 pula, aku tidak tinggal di asrama..Aku berulang alik dari rumah setiap hari..
Jadi, jarang sekali aku hadir solat berjemaah..*ok fadzleen, itu alasan!*


Sekarang aku di Tahun 3..di akhir Tahun 3..
Aku ditempatkan di blok asrama perempuan yang paling hampir dengan surau..
Aku dengar muazin laungkan azan..
Aku dengar orang baca iqamah..
Aku dengar suara imam..
Jelas sekali..masakan tidak, bilikku sebelah surau saja?

Tapi hatiku seakan-akan tertutup..

Aku selalu lihat gambar sahabat2ku di luar negara..

Masih sanggup berjemaah, di mana-mana saja..

Walau kesejukan dalam salji yang menebal, walau ditiup angin padang pasir, di mana-mana sahaja..

Tapi aku?? 

Diriku bermonolog, seolah-olah aku tidak layak ke masjid..

Penampilanku yang sangat sederhana, sangat kurang mencerminkan seorang Muslimah..

Hati dan jiwaku yang sering dicemari..

Aku jadi rendah diri..

Aku tahu aku tidak sepatutnya berperasaan begitu..

Hidayah Allah, aku kena cari!! bukan tunggu!!

Ya Allah!! 

Kemanakah Fadzleen Ezyani yang dahulu?

Yang pantas hadir apabila mendengar seruan untuk menghambakan diri kepadaMu?

Yang hatinya sering rindu dan rasa seronok berjemaah?

Ya Allah, kini aku rindu pada rutin dahulu..

Aku mahu kembali merasa ketenangan dahulu..

Dalam saf, bersama sujud kepadaMu..

Usai doa dibaca, saling bersalaman dan bermaafan..

Mengucup pipi sahabat sebagai tanda maaf..

Sudah lama kiranya aku tidak merasa keindahan itu..

Sahabat-sahabat,

mana ucapan takziah untukku?

kerana meninggalkan jemaah?

Pimpin tanganku kembali kawanku..

Bimbing aku kembali Ya Allah, Ya Rahim..

Jangan tinggalkan aku sendirian lagi..

Aku terkapai-kapai Ya Allah..Gapai tanganku kembali..Aku mencari redhaMu..

Too Fragile, Too Bad

I'm easily influenced by emotions..

I'm touched in a blink of eyes..

I can't stand seeing people suffering..

I'm easily distracted by a sense of hatred..

I get irritated when a minor probs came across..

I may be killed by a soft seduction..

I fall in love in a few seconds..

I love wholeheartedly..

I hurt for years..

I'm broken so badly.

I always stuck in jealousy and envy..

I become greedy for love..

I bear a grudge and i'm a silent hater..

I cry abundantly sometimes without purpose..

My heart is just too fragile, too bad..

My fragile heart is broken before and i don't think it can endure more pain..

I'm just hoping it will recover soon..

With fibrosis, it will never be the same..

I really hope later there will be someone who can handle it with care..with tenderness..

I'll treat this fragile heart so that i can love again..

I won't let the past masking my future..

Aku terkilan denganmu

Kamu-kamu yang mencemari erti cinta suci..
Dengan dongeng ciptaanmu sendiri..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Kamu-kamu yang mencuba mengolah cinta haram,
Supaya tampil suci di pandangan mata..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Kamu-kamu yang hilang waras..
Mencintai yang tidak halal bagimu..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Kamu-kamu yang hanyut dalam kehebatan cinta..
Namun sering lupa pada Pencipta Cinta..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Kamu-kamu yang berselindung disebalik cinta Islami..
Mengirim puisi2 indah bersulamkan bait-bait kalam suciNya..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Kamu-kamu yang terjerat dalam perangkap cinta..
Sengaja enggan melepaskan diri..
Aku terkilan denganmu..


Senyuman yang menikam..
Pandangan yang menyirap..
Tangan yang menjalar..
Bibir yang mendekat..
Sudah sebati menjadi norma..
Kamu-kamu yang memulakan..
Sungguh aku terkilan dengammu..

Kerana bagiku..

Cinta itu putih..suci..

Aku tak rela ia dicemari..

Sungguh..Aku terkilan denganmu..






Written By,
Fadzleen Ezyani

Edcoustic Live at USMKK!!

Wahai dunia dan sekalian alam!!

Saya nak bagitau yang favourite band saye datang USM KK!!!

EDCOUSTIC datang tempat saya..haaa..dekat kelantan!!

Happpppppyyyyyy gile tau tak??

Rasa macam tak cukup tanah kat Bumi, betapa happynya saya.. =))

Edc ni band nasyid kontemporari from Kota Bandung, Indonesia..

Mungkin Edc tak berapa femes lah kalau nak dibandingkan dengan Wali Band, Samsons, Kerispatih etc..

Tapi cukulah Edc femes dan mampu bertakhta di hati, jiwa dan perasaan saya..heeeee..

Saya mula2 start dengar lagu Edc tahun 2009 kalau tak silap..

Mula2 tau lagu 'Aku Ingin Mencintaimu Setulusnya'.. ini lagu cinta ketuhanan wokeh!!

First2 dengar dah angau..

Pastu, ada orang introduce pulak dengan lagu 'Muhasabah Cinta' pulak..

Kali ni memang jatuh cintaaaa separuh mati..ngehngeh..Sila dengar!! Sangatlah best!!

Ok, so dah kenal 2 lagu hits dorang..so, pe lagi, saye downloadlah lagu2 yang lain..

Seriusly wa cakap, memang gila best!! Der der dan cikaro cikaro sekalian wajib carik n dengar..hehe
Semua macam masuk elok je dalam jiwa nih..sebati je..nyaman je.. ;D


Tiba2 ternampak iklan macam ni 

maaf gambar tak elok..saya bukan jenis yang pandai pegang kamera..nampak je edcoustic nak dtg, Allah saja yang tahu happynya seorang Miss Loner..orang lain buat dek je..nak buat macam mana, edcoustic pun dorang tak penah dengar..orang-orang yg spesies klasik dan berjiwa sentimental macam saya je leh masuk dengan musik dorang..hehe..Tiket lak murah gila, rm8 je..pe lagi..kalau tiket beratus pun sanggup pergi semata-mata mahu tengok kang Aden sama kang Eggie.. *awas suami orang* ;P

Tengok picture kat atas ni..Observe leklok..Perhatikan..Fokusnya ialah..yang paling tepi, baju merah..banyak kan kerusi kosong?? haha..ini sebabnya kami datang terlebih awal..semangat kottttt nak pilih tempat depan2..5orang je geng topi yg mau datang..yang lain sebok nak pegi kursus kawen..ahaa..saya tak pegi lagi kursus kawen..tunggu nak pegi dengan calon 'abang'..haha
okeh, hbs pasal kawen..sambung pasal edc lg..


Siyes wa cakap lu..mantap gila suara kang Aden..sangat lain suara dia dgn dalam cd..kalau dalam cd, suaranya so-so je, tu pun saya da jatuh cinta..ini dengar live, real best!! cair kot!!! ahaha..
eceli ada 2 lagi artis lain yg buat performance, tapi takku hiraukan..sebab saya datang memang dengan nawaitu seikhlas hati nak tengok saya punya edc secara live..hehe

Sangat best..meruntun jiwa..mencairkan perasaan ..parah sungguh..hikhik..

Dengar punya dengar..suara yang sungguh merdu itu..uuuuuu..Tiba2 ada perasaan lain..apakah guwe udah jatuh cinta sama cowok Bandung? atau cuman ngefans doang? haha..*sekali lg, saya ingatkan, laki orang kot tuh* tenanglah wahai hati..hehe..normal la kan..nama lagi die hard fans..see, aku bisa ngomong indon sih..

Trimas ya kang eggie sama kang aden..i'll always support edcoustic!

Ok..for the very first time in my life,  saya beli cd!! siap mintak sign lagi tuh..selalunya, saya lah yang paling anti dengan orang-orang yang suka mintak sign ni..ok ok!! saya kalah..ini lah yang dinamakan fans!! ok sebelum ni saya memang tak kenal lansung ngan mamat edc 2org tu..tp cukup minat dengan lagu2 mereka..inilah yang dinamakan peminat sejati kan? minat bukan kerana rupa paras tp kualiti..heheh..
dan saya rasa sign dorang tu sgt special..susah kot mau jumpa dorang lagi..

Edc yang kiri and kanan tu..yg tgh tu bukan tau! hehe..yang baju merah tu plk nampak manic semacam je??

hehehehehehe..siap amek gambar lg tau!! hahaha..tak pernah kot dalam riwayat hidup seorang Miss Loner mau amek gambar dengan artis..tp nak buat macam mana kan kalau dah jatuh cinta tu..lautan api sanggup direnangi..malu sampai merah muka pun sanggup redah nak amek gambar..tapi, tak sempat pun mintak dorang tgk camera..ni semua gara2 budak2 laki kat sebelah tu!! tp xpe..dapat masuk gambar pun, hati ni dah berbunga-bunga..heeeeeeee.. =))


Sangat sukalahhhh..sampai hari ni masih teringat2 kenangan malam tu..angaukah saya? hikhik.. =))
Edcoustic!! jemput datang malaysia lagi, particularly, USM Kampus Kesihatan..nak datang Taman Desa Telipot pun takpe..nanti saya masakkan nasi tomato untuk kang Aden sama kang Eggie..haha

You Raise Me Up

Ni pic last year..sekarang ma dah slim melim..dulu da cantik..sekarang apatah lagi kan ma?? i love both of u lah.. =))

Dedicated specially to my beloved mom, mom, mom and dad..
This song is very meaningful..
Oh i miss u a lots ma, abah..
I'm so glad i stay for a distance only 10minutes from home..
I dont have idea what will happen to me if i'm located far away from them..
I just can't live alone..
Yes..i'm a dependent type of girl..I am sooo pampered..
I mean i'm very very much dependent to mom and dad's love..
I could die without them by my side..
Oh now i missed them abundantly!!!!
Today is Thursday, should be going back this evening..
Unfortunately, have clinical tonight 9.30pm..waaaaaaaaa.. T_T
Ma, Onie rindu ma sangat2..
Abah weekend baru balik..rindu yang menggila kat abah.. 




When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary..
When troubles come and my heart burdened be..
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence..
Until you come and sit awhile with me..

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains..
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas..
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders..
You raise me up..To more than I can be..

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains..
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas..
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders..
You raise me up.. To more than I can be..

There is no life - no life without its hunger..
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly..
But when you come and I am filled with wonder..
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity..


You raise me up.. To more than I can be..


~Ya Allah panjangkan umur ma dan abah dalam kesihatan yang sempurna..Apapun yang berlaku, aku harap itulah yang terbaik bagi mereka..Redhailah ma dan abah Ya Allah..Aku terlalu sayangkan mereka..Terlalu sayang..Kurniakan mereka keindahan Jannah Mu Ya Rahim..Ameen~

Sweet child of mine

Looking at your eyes is a blessing..
They are innocent, yet charming..


Looking at your pink plump face, it calms me..
It is very pretty, please don't let frown covers your beauty..


When you smiles, i am just so happy..
Because i know, your dimples were inherited from me..


When you laughs, the world is mine..
It is an undescribable feeling, I cannot define..


Your anger is truly inherited from me..

Your impatience, surely acquired from daddy.. =)

When your body temperature rises, I'm dying..

Because I just cannot stand seeing you suffering..

Watching you sleeping, I could stay awake..
Your breath, your warmth, is not fake..




Oh SWEET CHILD OF MINE, Your existence makes me feel alive..




 By,
 Fadzleen Ezyani


I don't know why i was writing this poem, anyhow, this is for u, my future 'sweet child of mine'..ermm..if i have any..  I just like kids soooo much.. I adore them soooo much.. =)

She..

She is the woman who wears smiles on her face..

She thanks God again and again for the news she just perceives..

It is growing very well, she feels that,

As she talks and sings to it every day every night..

There's a soft voice reciting Yasin in the dawn..

Praying that, to God and parents, it is obedient..

She never forgets Surah Maryam in the noon,

Hoping that she will be strong enough to face her jihad soon..  

She recites Surah Yusuf just after her Asar prayer,

Expecting that it will possesses a good look, resembles it's father..

At dusk, again with Quran in her palm, but this time Surah Luqman..
She talks to Him, so that it will be intelligent and brilliant..  




She cries in the dead of night with her lips whispering..
Oh, to God, she is innocently pleading..

She carries it everywhere she goes..
For her, it is not a burden but an award she bestows..




Vomiting and nauseated, she don't care..
For she believes in herself that she could bear..




She is just a normal woman with an unbelievable bravery and strength, man will never acquired..
She is soft and tender, yet she can resist the challenge, as she believes to Jannah she will be headed..




Written By,
Fadzleen Ezyani

P/S: She is your mother..
Be nice to her or you'll meet disaster..






p/s: again, i don't know why i was writing this entry.. I'm a 20yr old naive girl.. hehe.. just wanna have some 'beautiful' feeling of being a mother to a child.. Oh, maybe currently I'm in Obstetric & Gynaecology Block, thats why i'm being sooo high spirited to be a mom! haha.. 

Hi 2011!! Bye 2010!!

Bye-bye 2010!! You've taught me a lot about life.. Loads of values!!

2010 somewhat leaving me with stain.. 

Stain that i would like to erased..

However, the memories remain..

I've learnt about LOVE.. about HATRED.. about FORGIVING.. about the ART of LETTING GO.. about MATURITY.. about RESPONSIBILITY.. 

I've learnt to take LIFE SERIOUSLY.. 2010 made me ponder.. about FUTURE i'll treasure..

I try to learn to be a good WOMAN, DAUGHTER, SISTER and MOTHER..

I realized that how important woman is..I'm not to be wasted by a God's creature namely MAN!!

I realized, as a WOMAN, i've a RIGHT!! i deserve to lead my own happy life, not to be conquered by MAN!!

2010 taught me at a negative side as well.. i prefer to say, it is maturity.. ;p 

I learnt to take revenge.. I realized i'm not sooo forgiving..

Deep inside, i'm a fire!! I can be a very nice friend of you..

You treat me WELL? I'll not just treat you the best of mine, but I'll SERVE you my BESTEST!! You deserve it dear..

You treat me BAD? Just wait my dear.. I'll keep with my sweet smile but sorry dear, I'll treat you like RUBBISH then!! You deserve it sayang..

Sounds evil ha? Come on man! That is what we called life..

Until when we want to stay quiet and introverted? Please!

Thats how 2010 befriended with Miss Loner.. =))

Ok, now..

Hi Hi 2011!! I'm welcoming you whole-heartedly..

Oh 2011, please teach me well!! do guide me to be a better 21 year-old girl woman..

Oh.. just realized..i'm 21?? ahaaa.. so, i can get the key of freedom?

Ahaa..maybe thats why mom ask me about marriage..hehe

To my dear 2011..

• I want to be a GOOD WOMAN as a whole..I want to be pretty inside and outside.. I want to scrub my heart.. Remove all the stains and dead cells.. Replace with the new one.. I want to stay far away from hatred and envy.. 
• I want a SUCCESS as a MUSLIM DOCTOR.. a success fiddunya walakhirah.. so, i must strive hardto achieve that goal.. 
• I want to LOVE.. =)) O Allah, grant me your Hidayah.. please show me the light, please open my heart to love..
• I want to SMILE.. smile is a natural healer.. I want to heal the disease of people.. I want to be friended with them.. 

Dear 2011, do guide me along my journey.. 

Allahumma yassir walatuassir..

Faiza azamta, fatawakkal a'lallah..

=))