Sunday, March 20, 2011

Only Love



ONLY LOVE by TRADEMARK..
*Go thru the lyrics.. nice right?*


2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do 





This song is a good company of mine while i'm studying.. It has been 3 days, i play it non-stop.. This song by Trademark..is just awesome!! Classic english song!! I don't know where and what the heck is 'trademark' is all about.. But i enjoy their song very much.. The melody blends very well with my soul.. The lyric is simply beautiful.. Mind you, I don't keep any secret intrinsic meaning  of the song.. It is just sooo beautiful that i keep listening to it every seconds except during my prayer and my sleep time.. ;D Tell you what, you should listen to this awesome 'Only Love' yourself, then, tell me that you agree with me.. Teehee.. Ok, short entry this time, only steal my 10minutes away.. Ok, want to continue my study, still have 2 blocks to cover.. And 13 blocks to review again and again.. Thats medical life.. Thats why i'm searching a right song as my tranquilizer.. But only love can sayyyy..Try again or walk awayyyyyyyyyy..  =))


p/s: see u again after my professional exam.. I HAVE TO PASS!! Please Please Please, I beg u, do pray for me and my friends.. 
(-__-) 






Hugs and kisses,
~Fadzleen Ezyani~
=))

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Kisah adik dan Al-Quran

Hari Jumaat baru-baru ini, saya pulang ke rumah.. Tak tahan lagi rasanya dengan nota-nota yang tiada penghujungnya.. Kebetulan adik saya cuti sekolah.. Dia pasti bosan di rumah.. Hanya bertemankan Ma, Bibik dan Si kecil Maisarah.. Lagipun, ma ada hantar mesej, "Onie, balikla kejap.. Haqim(adik) nak guna laptop tapi Onie tak balik, kesian dia.. Ma masak banyak hari ni.. Ikan cencaru sambal hok onie suka pun ada ni.." Hati kecil saya mencair, tak tahan dengan rayuan seorang ibu.. Tengok, hanya dengan alasan masakan ibu, mudahnya saya tergoda dengan godaan ma.. =) Tambah2 lagi sebab kasihankan Haqim.. *balikla sekejap, release tension, minggu depan study lagi*

Pulang saja ke rumah, nampak Si kecil Maisarah.. Hilang stress.. =) Cabut sahaja tudung, saya sudah duduk di meja makan, tanpa disuruh.. hehe.. Kari ikan bawal, ayam goreng, brocolli+kubis goreng dan kesukaan saya ikan cencaru masak sambal.. Tak lupa sambal resepi ma yang best sangat!! Berasap-asap telinga saya makan.. Dua pinggan nasi, itu sudah pasti.. =) Masakan ibu memang yang terbaik di dunia.. Sambil makan, sambil melihat keletah Si Maisarah yang sedang bermain air di dalam besen di sinki dapur.. Hilang stress lagi.. =)

Usai makan malam (6.30petang), haqim datang duduk sebelah saya sambil mengunyah kismis.. "Kismis dari mana tu Qim?"saya bertanya.."Haqim dapat hadiah, ustaz bagi".. "Oh..sempena apa?" "Paling banyak hafaz Quran dalam kelas..ustaz pilih 2 orang setiap kelas".. "Wah, bagusnya.. Haqim dah hafal berapa surah dah?" "Juzuk amma(30), surah yasin, surah assajdah, addukhan, dan 11 muka surat AlBaqarah" "Ooooo.." "Kak Onie nak?" Saya pun ambil kismis itu dan makan bersama Haqim.. Dalam hati saya berkata, "Subhanallah, adik aku betul-betul insan terpilih.. Aku ini sudah 21 tahun hidup di dunia, membuang masa.. Surah Yasin pun masih lupa-lupa..Astaghfirullah"

Oh ya, Haqim berumur 13tahun (Tingkatan 1).. Abah hantar dia ke Maahad Tahfiz Sains.. Ok, kita sambung cerita.. Malam itu, saya keluarkan nota musculoskeletal dan duduk di sofa.. Pasang lagu di laptop, supaya tidak mengantuk.. Tahu sahajalah lagu-lagu kesukaan saya bagaimana kan? Kalau tak ada lagu-lagu cinta, memang tak sah.. Kemudian, Haqim pun datang.. Basah bajunya, baru lepas ambil wudhuk.. Dia bawak bersama pensil case, buku tebal mcm buku log tapi nampak macam Al-Quran yang kosong, dan sebuah AlQuran.. Hurmm.. Barangkali nak datang buat kerja sekolah bersama-sama.. Saya pun leka tengok dia menulis.. Oh, rupanya buku yang ala-ala Alquran kosong tu dipanggil, "Buku Tulisan Ayat".. "Ustaz cakap lepas hafal 3 muka, salin 3 muka tu dalam buku ni" Oh,begitu.. *Dalam hati berkata, maksudnya "Hafiz" ni sentiasa berada dalam keadaan berwudhuk..Syaitan pun tak berani nak ganggu.."

Dan tulisannya, Subhanallah, cantik! Macam Alquran betul-betul.. Tulisan ruminya pulak, Astaghfirullah, macam cakar ayam.. hehe.. Mungkin adik saya ini lebih banyak menulis jawi.. Ya lah, kerja sekolahnya menghafal dan menyalin AlQuran.. "Haqim, jadi maksudnya, kalau Haqim dah habis hafal semua, Haqim akan salin sebuah AlQuran, macam tu? "Iyup", dia menjawab sambil tekun menyalin.. "Nanti Haqim ajar Kak Onie ya macam mana cara Haqim hafal Quran.. Kak Onie pun nak hafal jugaklah".. "Kalau kat sekolah, Haqim talaqi dulu dengan ustaz, baru boleh hafal dengan bacaan yang betul.." "Oh macam tu.. Kak Onie talaqi dengan Haqim je lah..hehe" Haqim sengih je.. hehe.. Kemudian, saya tekan 'pause' pada playlist lagu saya.. Ya lah, adik menyalin AlQuran, kakak menyanyi-nyayi.. Tak tele..

Haqim..Haqim.. Adik saya seorang ni dah banyak berubah.. Walau sikap gila-gila tu masih ada.. hehe.. Kalau dulu, saya selalu memarahi dia.. Malas buat itu, malas buat ini.. Alhamdulillah, sekarang saya nampak perubahan.. Malah saya tahu, tak lama lagi, dia sedikit sebanyak yang akan merubah saya.. Saya tengok dia hafal Quran, sejuk hati.. Saya pun rasa nak hafal.. Moga-moga Allah permudahkan urusan adik saya.. "Haqim, nanti Haqim balik bulan depan, Kak Onie nak tengok Haqim bawak balik hadiah kismis lagi ya! Hafal banyak-banyak ok? Kak Onie tau adik Kak Onie memang bijak!" Dia jawab "Bereh".. Haqim memang pantang dipuji.. Kami sama-sama ketawa.. Dan saya meneruskan pembacaan blok Musculoskeletal saya dan dia meneruskan kerjanya......



p/s: Kepada kawan2 yang dah stress gile study, da rasa macam blackout, saya suggest baliklah rumah.. pergi amek tiket.. Balik 2,3 hari pun takpe.. Tak effectnya study tu, malah lebih refresh rasanya.. Balik tengok wajah mak dan ayah dapat pahala kan? Redha mak ayah pun penting juga.. Bila ibu bapa dah restu, ilmu pun senang je nak masuk.. Jangan study study study je ok.. 


Dan saya dapat satu pengajaran lagi balik rumah kali ni.. Jangan sesekali lupa AlQuran.. =)


 

Monday, March 7, 2011

Lets fight some more!!

Songs always give me inspiration and motivation.. It blends well with my soul.. And this song, Fight for This Love' by Cheryl Cole is very very inspiring.. It has a wide meaning, and up to you, how you want to perceived.. For me, it's not all about love.. Its about life.. Cheryl Cole is telling me that "Don't stop!! Keep moving!!".. If we feel tired, just hold on.. Don't ever turn back.. We're already half way.. Just proceed.. Face the future, face the adventure.. We're heading there now.. With some 'silly' obstacles, we'll finally arrive to our destination..  

I'm gonna be a doctor so soon.. 2 years is so soon.. 2013, I see myself as a strong doctor with smile on her face.. not to forget, i see myself rushing to my own boutique after work.. Its a dream.. I don't make dream my master, but I still believe in dream.. Dream drives me crazy, crazy to achieve my goals and aims..

Presents you..

FIGHT FOR THIS LOVE, Cheryl Cole    

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down
Knowing too much can get your hurt

Is it better is it worst
Are we sitting in reverse
Its just like we´re going backwards
I know where I want this to go
We´re driving fast but lets go slow
what i dont wanna do is crash, no
Just know you´re not in this thing alone
There´s always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we´re growing apart
Let´s just go back back back back back to the start
Anything that´s worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitings out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
We gotta fight fight fight fight fight for this love
Its worth having its worth fighting for 


Now everyday aint gon´ be no picnic
Love aint no walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can´t be afraid of the dark

I don´t know where we´re heading
I´m willing and ready to go
We can´t drive it so fast we just need to slow down
And just roll

We gotta fight for this love!!
Its worth having its worth fighting for!!


p/s: can't wait to enter my clinical years.. they say clinical years are scary.. ahh, persetankan saja.. scary pun scary lah.. redah ajeeee.. Fighting Dr Fadzleen!! ;D

Sunday, March 6, 2011

My heart sank..

I met you accidentally at this one place..
A place where you, me and our friends used to meet long long time ago..
Oh..We haven't meet for years..
I'm not sure if it was you, so i continue my strolling..
But your images keep broadcasting in my views..
I turned back.. and yeah, it was really you!!
You looked skinny.. Tall, still.. And of course your dressing was much much smarter..
You're no longer a kid that i knew before.. You've grown up..


I was about to say "Hi"..
Oh suddenly i noticed there was someone beside you..
A girl.. Seems like your special someone..
And guess what? She is a good friend of mine!!
Yeah, i knew from the start, you never like me.. 
So, i stepped back..
But now.. Huh!! I just cannot accept that my good friend was dating you..       


Lucky me, you didn't notice me at all..
I thought i am able to forget you.. 
But i don't have idea why my heart sank when seeing u with her..
I don't know why my tears just rolling down at that public spot..
Now I realize.. 
Instead of greeting you with a "Hi", i should wish you a friendly "Goodbye"..
Yeah, I'm wishing you goodbye.. Silently deep inside..
And my heart sank again..


Wednesday, March 2, 2011

This is a true MIRACLE from The One Up There..

ALHAMDULILLAH..TERIMA KASIH ALLAH..

Itu saja ucapan yang meniti di bibir sejak petang tadi..
Tiba-tiba rasa sebak.. Saya selalu cuai dengan suruhanNya.. selalu sangat.. laranganNya, yang tulah yang saya suka..

Subuh hampir2 nak terlepas.. Selalu macam tu.. Lepas je solat, terdengarlah bunyi jam solat digital menandakan waktu syuruk.. Astaghfirullah.. Astaghfirullah.. Kadang2, niat nak bangun pukul 4 pagi, nak solat, tapi bila alarm clock bunyi, saya tekan off,sambung tidur.. Astaghfirullah.. Astaghfirullah.. Kadang2 pakai baju, ingat nak cantik je.. Tak perasan pakaian tak berapa nak cukup syarat.. Astaghfirullah.. Astaghfirullah.. Bab study pulak? Memang takde kesungguhan lansung.. Facebook and shopping online 24hours.. Masa nk tulis blog lg..hadoi.. Astaghfirullah.. Astaghfirullah..

Instead of that, awak tau Allah bagi apa kat saya? Saya lulus exam Selanjar 3.. Ada improvement, dulu dpt C, sekarang dapat B.. Saya lulus ketiga-tiga soalan osce clinical.. Yang paling terharu, long case exam, dapat A.. Tanpa preparation apa2.. Subhanallah!! Ya Allah!! Ya Robbi!!  Rezeki yang tak ternilai.. Kejayaan ini ujian besar buatku Ya Allah.. Saya rasa sedih sangat.. Rasa sebak.. Saya buat Dia murka, tapi dia tetap bagi saya cahaya.. terang pulak tue.. T_T

Ya Allah, terima kasih atas kejayaan ini.. ALHAMDULILLAH.. segala puji-pujian buatMu Ya Tuhan..
Moga dengan apa yang Kau kurniakan buatku hari ini dapat membuka hatiku untuk menjadi hambaMu yang sebenar-benarnya.. Istajib Dua'ana Ya Allah.. Ameen

P/S: Terima kasih dr yeop.. Saya sangat menghargai jasa dr.. Saya tergagap-gagap time long case, tapi dr tetap bermurah hati dan berlembut hati.. Harap sangat2 dapat belajar dengan dr yeop taun depan.. and dapat jadi  examiner saya lagi.. =)) *ehem saya ada baca satu ayat suci Quran time exam hari tu..ma cakap ayat tu dapat lembutkan hati examiner..hee..jeng2* Nk tau cite psl long case, klik sini ok..

Tadi tengok BersamaMu TV3, pkl 9.30malam.. Nasib baik roomate sy cakap dia nmpak dr yeop masa iklan tv3.. dari pukul 8malam saya tunggu nak tengok dr yg sgt berbaik hati ni.. Kenapa dr nampak skema sgt dalam bersamamu? mungkin selaras dengan tema program ek..hee

NF1 = Neurofibromatosis Type 1



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